It's been a while.

Between you and me, I think we needed a break. But I'm back, now. I'll try to stay that way.

Moved back home; that's the biggest news. I'm going to go back to school too, if I can get my shit together. But mostly I've just been laying low. Living life to it's least full. But it isn't all bad. I got my old job back at hot topic. Working with those guys again is pretty cool. And I'm gonna try to get a second job as well. I'm also doing a paper route with Shannon. I don't know how much longer that will last though. Neither of us are making as much money from it as we would like.

Been going 6 months strong with Tehya. That's pretty impressive for me. It really doesn't feel like it's been that long. And even though it has, I guess I don't really see her steadily for very long. She's either in Eau Claire going to school, or now she's working at camp 45 minutes north of Duluth in Eveleth. But I am going up there next weekend to see her, so that will be fun.

Sumer has been alright. It seems like everyone is far away or broke. Or both for that matter. I wish I could find a job that I would like and get paid enough to live off of.

Well, I think it's enough for now. I'll hopefully be more apt to write in this more often.

//end transmition.

now I'm just sitting here.

And I won't be the first one to call.

violent mood swings.

my emotions have been so all over the place as of late. i've gone from being awesomely happy, to majorly bummed in no time flat. Throw in some anger to the mix and you got yourself an emotion cocktail.
I feel like such a jackass for being mad and bummed. I have no real reason. I'm just being a dick. Oh well. Life goes on.
i just want it to be summer. I feel like summer will just make everything better. But it won't. I'm still going to be sitting on my ass by myself most days, like I am now, being bummed that I'm not out hanging with people. I shoudn't need other poeple to make me happy. I am in control of my emotions, not them. oh fucking well.

So, it's been awhile.

Things in my life are pretty alright as of late. I'll be moving out of my West Side residence to go back to the boonies. I'm okay with moving, it's a good choice. I'm gonna go back to school and get me some learnin' done.

Mostly, I just want it to be summer again. I want to bike in the warmth in shorts and sleeveless teeshirts, with the sun beating down on my shoulders. I can't stand this cold thing anymore.

I also am excited for Jeremy to come home. He's been gone too long. I really miss hanging out with him. Plus, when he gets back we're going to go see watchmen. Everyone else is going to see it tonight. And they're going to be calling me to tell me how awesome it is.

Plus, Tehya is going on spring break soon, so I get to see her for more than just a few days, which will be amazing. It's her birthday on the ides and I want to take her to cosetta's for dinner. She also wants to eat her mom's speghetti, and I don't blame her, because her mom's speghetti is awesome.

For the last few days, I've been hanging out with Emi. She has been my saving grace. I don't know what I would do without her, she just does so much for me. More than she will ever know. I'm lucky to have a friend like her. Her and Melonie mean so much to me, it's ridiculous. I have only known them for about two years and they have been such great friends to me.

Now, i have to get ready for work, stocking boxes for the red menace. At least they pay well, because this job is slowly killing me, one scar at a time. I really need the money, but I think I may be quitting soon. Just out of schiere inconvenience.

Nate is moving out to bum-fucked nowhere, and Mike might be going with him. So I won't ever see them again. This is an exageration, of course. But I won't see them very often. I'm moving back to my dad's, so I won't get to see Emi or Melonie that often either. Luckily, I will get to see Jeremy and Shannon because they're just over in Apple Valley, which isn't too terribly far from my dad's house. Also, I'm going to try and get my job back at Hot Topic, so I will get to see Corey and the crew again, which is awesome. I love all those kids, and Corey has been more my friend then my manager.

Well, I guess now is as good a time as any to say, see ya. Hopefully it won't be as long in between posts.

...

someone i know died. "Passed on" is how it was put to me. I hate euphemisms... She's dead, and saying it makes it easier to accept. The funeral is tomorrow. Eleven o'clock at St Michael's. I'm bad at funerals. I don't like listening to preachers drown on about death. I'm more so bad at churches. I don't like the religious aspect of funerals. It doesn't coincide with my own ideals.

I donno. I was asked if i want to go to the funeral... but I'm not sure. I want to. Ya know? To say good bye. But I haven't talked to her in years. It's a weird feeling. mixed emotions...

strangeland.

I had a weird couple of days. On monday I slept until about 7 o'clock. Then I woke up and did some laundry. After i did a couple of loads, I went over to Shannon's house because we made plans to go buy Nick and Norah's at best but to get a free where's fluffy tee shirt. So, I went over there and we just hung out for a while and watched movies. She went to bed around 6 in the morning and I stayed up and watched another movie because I don't really sleep at night anymore. So, around 9 am i go and wake her up, because best buy opens at nine thirty. She gets up, we smoke a cigarette, then we go. First to the bank, then to Best buy. We get the movie, and I bring her home so she can go back to sleep.

After that, I go to the mall to see ifcorey's working. Just to catch up with him, or whatever. We just end up chatting while he does the stuff he's gotta do. There really isn't much to do on a tuesday morning, so we mostly just talked. Then after a little while has passed I asked him who else was coming in. He said Dani. I asked when and he said, " In a half an hour." So I decided to wait around for dani to get there, so I could say hi to her. When she got there I started talking with the both of them and then corey went on his break. I said goodbye and that i would probably be gone when he got back. Well, he got back and I was still there. Infact I was still there untill almost 3 o'clock.

I decided it was time to go when i found out it was three, so I left. As I was leaving I caled jeremy, and told him I wasn't allowed to go to hot topic by myself anymore and I told him the story. Then I talked to jeremy the whole way home, and evern after I got home. I ended up talking to him for another 2 and a half hours. I finially went to bed around 7 pm. the same time I had woken up the previous day. and then I woke up around 2 am. and now, I'm up.

good morning.

yay.

since friday, i have watched Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist 5 times. A little ridiculous, I know, but when I really like something, I tend to obsess over it a little. Or a lot. But I really think it's a spectacular movie.

It comes out on DVD tomorrow, and I'm going to go buy it. Best Buy is having a deal where if you buy the movie, you get a Where's Fluffy tee shirt. So you better believe I'm going there right when they open to get it.

I'm such a nerd.